Okay, I am ready

10 things I love.

I would put God on the list but He is in all of these when you think about it.

1. Those friends ;here and gone; that helped lead me to a saved life 7 years ago. I am forever grateful.
2. My church family who have kept me sane all these years.
3. My cat. Always making me laugh except when he eats my beef jerky!
4. The smell of strawberries. Reminds me of summer.
5. Summertime. Hot summer, beaches, swimming, camping.......love it.
6. Walks in nature. Always reminds me that God is all around.
7. The color red. I don't know why.
8. My hair being played with. Almost puts me to sleep
9. Being single.
10. A good laugh. You know, the kind that leave tears in your eyes and your cheeks hurt.

Drive

So I was coming home from Abby today and I got this craving for beef jerky. Now the only place I go for beef jerky is in Deroche. The best. I didn't want to go home so I went. As I was leaving the store I knew home was not where I wanted to be. I have had this feeling for days now. Every time I am out I never want to come home. I don't remember turning to go to Harrison, I just remember I was driving there. I am glad I went for that drive. I needed that time with God. I have been having some issues that I need to work on and I can't do it alone but I feel I can't tell anyone either because I don't want to get people involved. I know I can tell people but then when I do, I leave feeling that I shouldn't have. There are days were I don't even think about these things and then there are days were I feel like I am drowning. I get so frustratedbecause I have no idea what I am suppose to do. I can't sit still and I have this cabin fever. Everytime I am out some where I have no desire to go home, but I don't know where I am suppose to go. Even when I came home after the drive today, I cleaned my car and didn't even go inside really. I went for a walk right after I was done. I don't know why I feel this way, I do know I kinda feel lost right now.