Drive

So I was coming home from Abby today and I got this craving for beef jerky. Now the only place I go for beef jerky is in Deroche. The best. I didn't want to go home so I went. As I was leaving the store I knew home was not where I wanted to be. I have had this feeling for days now. Every time I am out I never want to come home. I don't remember turning to go to Harrison, I just remember I was driving there. I am glad I went for that drive. I needed that time with God. I have been having some issues that I need to work on and I can't do it alone but I feel I can't tell anyone either because I don't want to get people involved. I know I can tell people but then when I do, I leave feeling that I shouldn't have. There are days were I don't even think about these things and then there are days were I feel like I am drowning. I get so frustratedbecause I have no idea what I am suppose to do. I can't sit still and I have this cabin fever. Everytime I am out some where I have no desire to go home, but I don't know where I am suppose to go. Even when I came home after the drive today, I cleaned my car and didn't even go inside really. I went for a walk right after I was done. I don't know why I feel this way, I do know I kinda feel lost right now.